April 19th (Continued)

I arrive at school. The people there have little respect or care for the people around them. People simply walking, concerened only about reputation. I look around and notice several things. There is a person that is hurting. She won't admit it but she needs a shoulder to cry on. Her friends don't notice the pain she hides becuase she only shows it when they look away. There are a group of kids mocking and cussing like it doesn't matter. Because to them, it doesn't. The bell rings and the teachers talk about their subjects. As I go to my 3rd class I am releaved that seminary has finally arrived. I walk in and find out that today is a silent lesson. The slideshow plays and my heart strings start being plucked. As I sit there in that class room the spirit whispers what I need to fix and that I am loved. Its a rare thing feeling loved in this world. I am glad that I was able to feel it. Because the lord knows that I needed it. And because I was in the right place I was able to feel it.

April 19th

Today I woke up around 6:45. The weight of everything of the day waisted no time in falling on me. The Chemistry test I missed because I was sick. The English packet I had forgotten to do and would likely do before class. And the fact that school started in about an hour and I had to get up still. I hoped in the shower and Realized I had missed my morning prayer. So I just offered my heart to him then and there and asked that today I might be better than yesterday. As like many times before a fimiliar peace settled in my heart and I knew that even if my heart Ached and everything fell against me I would be ok. I then pondered all the people that had left me on the road side and how badly I missed them. The peace was slow to come but it did non the less. Today I am grateful for My savior. And I hope one day I can show my love to him in all I do. But today I am only one step closer. But thats still one step.